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22 Nov

Teenage insecurities are rushing back – mainly because of the comparison with the other girls on ‘sale’ that night.I’m scared no one will bid for me, or I’ll be the cheapest date (for want of a better phrase! I’m worried that at 5’8′ and a size 12 (UK), I’ll lumber over the other petite girls, in the same way I did in my College Drinking Society at university. I’ve lived a very unorthodox 30 years, and I’m proud of who I am and all that I’ve achieved.And equally, anyone who befriended me between the ages of 10 and 14 is clearly a very good friend, because I looked awful! 😉 (At this point I should probably say, I made my very best friend at 11, and she has stuck with me through thick and thin, and even more dubious haircuts through the years! I’ve always been bubbly and forward, and whilst I was never one of the beautiful girls at school, or in the ‘in’ crowd, I tended to get on with everyone, and was relatively popular. I like chatting to people and hearing their stories, and I’ve always found you can find common ground with most people – one of the reasons I was happy to go on 30 blind dates in the first place.For the best part of 30 years, I’ve relied upon my personality, and my banter (for want of a better word).And I guess, as someone who has worn my personality like a shield for so many years, the idea of being judged without it is rather scary.But this Friday, I will face my fears, stand on a table, and keep my fingers crossed that at least one person bids for me. They got to know me, and came to love me for my personality.

I exercise regularly, and eat relatively healthily, but don’t beat myself up if I miss a couple of days in the gym, eat a chocolate bar, or get crazy drunk every once in a while! I’m not gonna lie – it’s not a situation I’ve ever found myself in before! The minute I agreed, childhood worries came flooding back, in an ‘ kind of way.A friend is running a charity Date Auction, and I guess I should be rather flattered that she chose me as one of the Dates – I don’t know whether it was simply a case that I was one of the few single girls she knows willing to stand on a table and have men bid for her, or whether she thinks I’ll rake in high bids?! I’ve always been someone who relied on my personality to get by.But we don’t permit real life meetings and won't approve funds with real life meeting offers.” Less ambiguous is auction-dating site – and possible vehicle for a Bruce Forsyth quiz show – Whats Your Price.Whats Your Price works like any other dating site – it just adds money into the mix.At the age of ten, I watched the Bond film ‘License to Kill’, and the main female character Carey cuts her hair short midway through the film.I was a complete tomboy and loved her funky pixie style hair, so begged my parents to let me cut my hair in the same manner.It’s “the same as with all other goods” they tell me, citing other sites such as where amateurs and professionals sell much harder content.In fact, far from being a faceless enterprise, PBG prides itself on the personality of its members.I’m completely comfortable turning up on a date with a stranger, and knowing I can come across well and make it a fun night.And yet, standing up on a table, in front of a group of guys who don’t know me, and don’t know my personality, or my crazy life backstory – men who will essentially just be judging me on my looks, scares the sh*t out of me!