Dating hamster wheel of despair

06 Jan

Yik Yakker wrote: "Well it was only a matter of time before we inevitably came to this. Yeah, I know, it's business, supply and demand, blah, blah, blah. Does anyone know if Netflix is planning something like this with their mail service?

Any Gimpers recognize the movie and/or the actress? Still, I don't like the idea of someone else telling me which movies I can and cannot see.

You want to be comforted and you want to be held but at the same time, you push people away because you feel confined and annoyed. I often compare anxiety and depression to a hamster wheel.

It never stops turning, much like the thoughts in your head.

It’s because I feel like my purpose is to share and educate about the taboo that is mental illness.

Just because you can’t see it, doesn’t mean that it don’t exist. I used to be afraid of my scars and now, I embrace them.

16 (BNA): Her Royal Highness Princess Sabeeka bint Ibrahim Al Khalifa, Wife of HM the King and President of the Supreme Council for Women (SCW), received at the SCW's premises here today, the Wife of Malaysian Prime Minister, Seri Hajah Rosmah Mansor of Malaysia, Susan Chu of Chinese Taipei, Mai Thi Hanh of Vietnam, Regina Tong Ching-Yi of Hong Kong, Naraporn Chan-Cha of Thailand, Akie Abe of Japan, Ho Ching of Singapore, and Mufidah Kalla of Indonesia.

Now, you might be asking why I said the news of my diagnosis was for the better.He has the luxury of waking up, getting dressed and carrying on with his day, and if a problem should arise throughout said day, he handles it and moves on.With someone who has anxiety, waking up isn’t so easy; it’s devastating. It’s feeling like your heart is going to explode out of your chest and plop out on the floor in front of you.I would have to live with having a chemical deficiency in my brain for my entire life and because of the low levels, I would have to struggle with anxiety, depression and a categorized panic disorder; I am convinced the people closest to me, like my boyfriend, hate me.I’ve also managed to add anorexia nervosa to the mix, especially after I hit a deep depression after my grandfather’s death in 2010.There are a few ways to end this turning, like therapy, but that only works some of the time.You can try reading, taking a shower or a hot bath, but even then your mind continues to race and you become disengaged.until the next attack happens, whether it be an hour, a day or a week later.You feel like you’re suffocated by people who try to help and ease your discomfort and erratic thoughts.I’ve been medically diagnosed with hypochondriasis and it’s not a joke or an understatement to me.It’s never wanting to leave my house, not wanting to get close to people, and freaking out whenever someone is sick.